I'm nt an intelligent person. Even though I have a science and biostat degree. I feel dumb. I don't know if Im walking on the right pathway. I feel bad for wasting my parent's money. I m a lucky girl who gets everything from my parent. I may not own any branded stuff. But I consider myself a very lucky girl cos my parent payed for my new car when I was 18, got to study here in Australia since I was 18 and all the stuff they gifted me. A lot of time. I feel that I m not worth it. Thank you papa n mama for giving me everything I need n oso some crap I bought with their money. Sorry for spending so much on me. I really wanna make everything worthy. I'm scared that when I start working in the future, I don't earn enough to give to my parents. I wanna earn a lot of money n make my parent proud of me. But I reli don't know if things gonna work out that way.
Sigh.... I really need to grow up. Think mature. N be more outgoing. My life here is boring. I need to be more adventurous. I need to know more people. But I don't want to be the first person to talk. I may sounds or look arrogant. But a lot of times. I m just too lazy.
Dear life. I really don't know what to do with it. It's just too unorganized and aimless. It's like if I have to describe life as a plain paper and have whatever material I have or need provided by my parent. Some people may choose to draw something on it, some choose to color it, or even make something from it. Mine will be one of those who doesn't know what to do with it. I'm 22 years old And still don't know what to do with my life. It's nobodys fault. just something wrong with me.
guess im still upset about my test.
